I suffer from atrophy and more … how can I be treated?

Hi, I am 66 years old, since I was a girl I have suffered from cystitis and pseudo-pelvic pains and dyspareunia perhaps due to previous candidiasisand badly cured cystitis or my constitutional defect or my taboo. In fact I was terrified of sexual intercourse, I considered it bestial and painful. At 33 I had a little girl but always with suprapubic pain. Could she ever be atrophy at that age? I rarely consulted gine, I was afraid, so I went on avoiding sexual intercourse. Luckily I parted soon. The years went by between ups and downs, I had got used to it. Each time I did urine cultures, which were almost always bacterial. I could not explain the origin of my intimate ailments. I arrived at the time of menopause. Everything was normal. I was fine and had a lover with whom I had strangely painless sex. But one day I found blood on my panties and I was alarmed. I had a pap smear and I was looking forward to seeing you. I had conization and a radical hysterectomy afterwards, I was almost relieved. Maybe I would be cured of my ailments. But no, they soon returned with a fearful cystitis, and run out of steam. Admitted to the hospital for pains, they gave me plenty of antibiotics. I was in the same pain, even worse, as if they had no effect, but how come, I returned home afflicted and with diarrhea. For a long time I sought answers from one doctor and another. Nothing, mysterious case; then I went to a gine, she told me that I had severe atrophy. She gave me something I don’t remember, maybe I got better. I was having a good time and then the pelvic pains came back … there For a long time I was looking for answers from one doctor and another. Nothing, mysterious case; then I went to a gine, he told me that I had severe atrophy. She gave me something I don’t remember, maybe I got better. I was having a good time and then the pelvic pains came back … there For a long time I was looking for answers from one doctor and another. Nothing, mysterious case; then I went to a gine, he told me that I had severe atrophy. She gave me something I don’t remember, maybe I got better. I was having a good time and then the pelvic pains came back … theredryness. Everything focused on the bladder, she always gave me torments even though nothing resulted from the echoes. Then I had a dnh lymphoma, everything takes a back seat. The pelvis went silent, I operated on my twins, I had chemo, I healed. I was better, my bladder was giving me respite. Months passed, perhaps a year, and with the cold of December I had cystitis from and coli: I cured and everything was over. The atrophy was silent, but it was latent, ready to strike, and it was so. Pain from crying, urine with and coli. I went to the gine, echo in place and only slight vaginal inflammation, fasigyn ovules, but … I was wondering .. those terrible pains … where did they come from ???? Anyway, I was fine, am I amplifying the pain with my mind too sensitive? Of a bland thing do I feel all amplified? I forgot to tell you that for years I have suffered and suffer from genitoanal herpes every now and then, hot cold stress. Today I am 66 years old and for a week I have been getting back pains in the lumbar region2 s3 together with pain in the bladder, rectus vulva, all the pelvic floor. I take half an efferalgan and it’s better. All after having carried the dog in his arms, he does not go up, the elevator is broken and I have carried him. What ever happened to my wretched pelvic floor? I haven’t been able to have sex in yearsiii. Do I have to commit suicide? What do I have ??? I can not do hormonal therapies, I put lubrigyn but it does not work miracles, I would tolerate vaginal dryness but the bladder is much more annoying. Now I would say enough, I’m tired … someone help me. Thank you, answer me. Paola I brought it. What ever happened to my wretched pelvic floor? I haven’t been able to have sex in yearsiii. Do I have to commit suicide? What do I have ??? I can not do hormonal therapies, I put lubrigyn but it does not work miracles, I would tolerate vaginal dryness but the bladder is much more annoying. Now I would say enough, I’m tired … someone help me. Thank you, answer me. Paola I brought it. What ever happened to my wretched pelvic floor? I haven’t been able to have sex in yearsiii. Do I have to commit suicide? What do I have ??? I can not do hormonal therapies, I put lubrigyn but it does not work miracles, I would tolerate vaginal dryness but the bladder is much more annoying. Now I would say enough, I’m tired … someone help me. Thank you, answer me. Paola